
When love is not in red it is not love..smile smile!!
Somethings are just meant to be. Some people are just meant to come into our life’s and make a beautiful rhapsody of it. Destiny just sends them to pour some whiskey and flavor up our life on rocks . Yes, it comes in the most unexpected time in the most unexpected form and lights up your life like Christmas and the lights stay on. The flame never goes out. That’s how love for me is. A wild lift off. Passionate. Perpetual tachycardia that does not get lethal though. I can mediate for calming myself down but love for me is not that. It’s energetic. Always been that way with lots of mass times accelerations acting around. It is stormy and it’s the best form of storm you would want to get caught in. The fights ,the lorry full of sorry that follows(always that’s me though!) , the fist fights at times (ending up with my glasses breaking..sigh!!),the sleepy 3 AM talks, the intimacy, the vulnerability, sharing something’s ,attempts to understanding someone, the birthdays, the doing things together and especially the making them breakfasts in the mornings and the nothingness at times, all that just all of it that it is. As is rightly said loving someone deeply gives us deep courage somehow in all fiery spirits. In a few well-chosen words if I can sum up my meaning of love till now I can say as very succinctly expressed by Alexandre Dumas in his famed book “The three musketeers”, “Love is the most selfish of all the passions”. A happy them is a happy me. Taking care of someone you love is sacred for me. It gives me immense happiness .I love myself a lot(trying to at least) and I do not expect ever to be loved back the way I love them else it will get boring with too much love fires bubbling around. I like it when it is a concoction of challenging, calming and honestly phenomenal. The best feeling in the world for me is to have someone to care for and be there for, to treasure, to win with, to loose with, to stare at with wonder, to hold, to be held back, to cry with, to hold hands, to cook for(pun intended because I suck at cooking..duh!!!) and just all of it.
And then when its time for this love for this firework to leave I am never ready. Somewhere between the sky just transitions and this sudden shift I deny to accept. I turn out to become a humanized cactus for the days that follow. An epic mess of emotions running too deep draining myself down in spirits of all form ,lamenting with robust guitar beats on my woofer so that I don’t hear the cacophony going inside my mind and heart , drunk dialling and emotions reaching till stratosphere and the same time hitting rock bottom. The ache always stays but yes I learn to live with it. The persons coming into our life was a blessing be it for finite time and its better to remember the time well spent rather than the way things ended or as I like to say when things took a turn. As its rightly said the magic is in the mess. So it’s all right if you are vulnerable if you are wearing your emotions on your sleeves. We learn the most exciting life lessons by going through intense life experiences and not by avoiding them. So say cheers to love whenever it knocks but yes take care of yourself always. Your self-respect and your emotions never let it become anyone’s doormat. Take risks but make sure he/she is worth it.Be fearless in pursuit of what your heart beats for. But just let it be too when its time. Life has been very gracious to me and I have been abundantly blessed. No matter what situations I have been through the love we built will never tear me apart. There is no last exit from anyone because they had me and I had them for a finite time may be but that nobody can take away from me. No one can ever replace anyone because all of us are made of such beautiful specific details and they become a part of YOU.
I know one thing for sure, love will be lovelier every time it comes around and if it does not I have myself for me. I will always say the sorry and have breakfast and pressed clothes ready before we leave for work. Forever and always….

